I can't remember laughter
I know I have seen him laugh with children, but I can’t remember him laughing with me, embarrassed by me for over a decade, yes, but not laughing with me. I don’t remember laughter.
I keep trying to visualize him laughing with me and it is so hard for me to see or remember. Maybe it was there and I just couldn’t see it.
Though I have seen contentment there when he would reach down and stroke a tiny, tiny leaf and it would react amazingly to his touch and close up or watch spot the squirrel.
So I will visualize peace and contentment there.0