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mundane ramblings

Consequential head scratching

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mundane ramblings

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mundane ramblings, writings

[Unproofed/ramble warning]. When the cascade of consequences of incessant people watching and headscratching combines with being artist produces a phd, I find this to be an unexpected perk not predicted by early-life performance. The downside of incessant thinking and questioning...

Correlation between writing, making and academic proclivities

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mundane ramblings

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mundane ramblings, writings

the more I write, the more I make with its inversion true. when either comes to a halt the other withers in the absent wake. reductions in either writing or making has been a red flag that something is off,...

the struggle is real as a result of fixed conventions: artist or scholar

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mundane ramblings, writings

as artist i can study human behavior, hunt for patterns and anomalies, and i can intuitively flesh out truths (trends) both in manipulated art objects/spaces as well as in human space. my methods do not have to be reproducible. as...

Last chance to de-stink the four legged tail wagging she beast

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mundane ramblings

With a visit to Buddy Holly park.0

philosophical sensory slutting and carnal knowledge

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mundane ramblings

I remember sitting through my historical aesthetics philosophy last fall. Balk I did at the mind sets (ha) in which the mind was/is privileged over situated bodily experiences, as though the body was just a courier for a separate soul. I laughed...

dissolution at the threshold of other

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doing artist, mundane ramblings, process

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mundane ramblings

who unfolds you onto your own pathways? re-membering you not archivalily but in presence–without a dissolution at the threshold of other into other? yet the materialization of self is neither accessed nor culled without the tug of other? we are, i am, dependent on other....

Daniel Ariel’s hot state and creative acts

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creative habit, Daniel Ariel, hot state, research ramblings

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mundane ramblings, research ramblings

MORNING MUSING From the frame of behavioral economics in Predictable Irrational, Daniel Ariel discusses hot (affect) ethics. Hmmm, entertainingly he designed his experiment not around anger, which is often referred to as hot state, but around sexual arousal in males. His logic was...

art making as contextual other–as resolving alternate avenues of being

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doing artist, Judith Butler, research ramblings, selfie

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mundane ramblings, research ramblings

MORNING MUSINGS. “Moments of unknowingness about oneself tend to emerge in the context of relations to others, suggesting that these relations call upon primary forms of relationally that are not always available to explicit and reflective thematization. If we are formed...

WHAT? Am I artist as a way to account for the ways i am unable to negotiate particular conventions in a fashion I can live with?

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mundane ramble, research ramblings

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mundane ramblings, research ramblings

MORNING MUSING. Am I artist because I cannot fully navigate the path of scholar, cube worker, day laborer, housewife, mother? Perhaps the lack a capacity to fulfill those roles has influence, but i did not arrive at artist reductively, because it was all...

accounting again and again for myself – i am scholar, only sort of, it is an unreconcile fit

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academic textabation, research ramblings, whine

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mundane ramblings, research ramblings

MORNING MUSING. i find myself accounting again and again for myself as i navigate rendering myself legible, viable, particularly in the realm as scholar, even neophyte scholar. i find myself brushing up against conventions of scholarliness and bristle at my inability to access, to...

am I artist as a way to …

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research ramblings

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art, mundane ramblings, research ramblings

Am I artist as a way to account for the ways i am unable to negotiate particular conventions in a fashion I can live with? I don’t recall a time in which I was not paying attention to the way...

To be natural is such a very hard pose to keep up

― Oscar Wilde, The Importance of Being Earnest

deconstructing a few academic defense mechanisms and distorted thinking with a gender bent and my bum on a donald judd artwork (wink)

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ART 5364, gender, whine

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art, mundane ramblings

the following is an account of my own humorous and dysfunctional defense mechanisms (rational) that help me hold myself together in the face of the threatening challenge of scholarly writing. here is how it sounds in my head as a...

artist as forming in troubling and then being compelled to be about troubling troublings. [got it?]

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ART 5364, doing artist, gender, Judith Butler, research ramblings

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mundane ramblings, research

I find it paradoxically funny that I desire a categorically FIXED definition of troubling from Judith Butler’s texts when all her writings point to the notion that the categorical is inherently complex and unstable. Because identity is unstable and complex what is destabilizing,...

[academic textabation] why all this pink? good question

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ART 5364, first encounters with ones own femininity, pink

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femininity kathy

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mundane ramblings

Not that anyone has yet to ask me “Why all the pink?” in the interdisciplinary project propaganda for the first encounters with one’s own femininity, yet I have been second guessing myself on the calls Barbie pink and swishy motif. I suppose I had a...

making bad art

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making bad art, process

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mundane ramblings, process

The risk of not making daily is that each making spurt then places you back at your beginning. You must then rework through making bad art for a short duration before your body finds the rhythms in making again, before...

doing life — the discrepancies between intent and outcome

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ART 5364, critique, doing life

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mundane ramblings

I find it disconcerting that I cannot get my internal sense of care or consideration to juxtapose contiguously with what spills from my lips. Instead I become undone as I see reflected misreadings that suggest my intent and words are...

…and you will be “right” and happy…a note from my grandmother to my mom

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ART 5364, family, feminism, gender, mom, mundane ramblings, performitivity

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mundane ramblings

On the inside cover of the 699 yellow paged hard bound tome of Amy Vanderbilt’s Complete Book of Ettiquette: A Guide to Gracious Living I found the following note to my mom from her mother dated 1957: May this answer all...

breaching this space aloud

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ART 5364, Dopt (the dog), hermitage, lubbock, writing

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mundane ramblings

for me the most effective way to proof my writing is to read it out loud. i usually don’t. despite what appears to be exhibitionism on my fb status updates and my documentation of my art practice, my life habits...

“research becomes an alternative to self cannibalization” Lopate

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academic textabation, ART 5364, artist writings, certainty, data mining, insistence, linguistic, LIWC, neophyte, QDA Miner, research, Texas Tech, TT course work, WordStat7

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mundane ramblings, research

my playpen :: anti-self cannibalization :: it is my tendency to jump in the deep end to see if I can explore this realm while learning to efficiently navigate a pool and a swim/floating method I haven’t previously used. Things...