but returning isn’t an option. back, yes. return, no. life is nonreturnable, nonrefundable. there are simply zero redos. the route only moves in the now with a constant drifting forward no matter whether one’s mind fixes at various points in the past or the future. the preference would be for mentality stabalizing 80% in the now, i’ll save 10% for reflection so as to learn and not repeat and 10% projecting into the later so i can at least sketch out a rough pencil version of the future to move toward.