Gosh their was some title for this work in progress
But perhaps it is redefining itself into the the sucking destructive sound of an unhealthy lymph system, a system in which i repeatedly over decades rationalize, justify and make excuses for another person’s behavior by blaming myself, or other life events, for their actions. It sucks the life out of me to choose to carry the responsibility for another person’s attitudes, beliefs, and actions. I can only carry the responsibility for my own.