artist + writer + perpetual home renovator

mumbling to myself aloud, in public, at times it is embarrassing.

I begin a painting with a series of mistakes…For me the medium of oil painting resists, more strongly than others, content cut off from external relations. It continually threatens, because of its motility and subtlety, to complicate a work beyond the simplicity inherent in a high order of abstraction. I attribute my increasing devotion to oil, lately as against the constructionalism of collage, to a greater involvement in the human world. A shift in one’s human situation entails a shift in one’s technique and subject-matter.
Robert Motherwell, 1947, statement 

A painter who addresses the public not just in order to present his works, but to reveal some of his ideas on the art of painting, exposes himself to several dangers.

Henri Matisse,
Notes of a Painter (1908)

I am fully conscious that, not being a literary man, certain presumptuous persons will think that they may reasonably blame me; alleging that I am not a man of letters. Foolish folks! Do they not know that I might retort as Marius did to the Roman Patricians by saying: that they, who deck themselves out in the labours of others will not allow me my own. They will say that I, having no literary skill, cannot properly express that which I desire to treat of; but they do not know that my subjects are to be dealt with by experience rather than by words; and (experience) has been the mistress of those who wrote well. And so, as mistress, I will cite her in all cases.”

LEONARDO DA VINCI
The Literary Works of Leoiardo da Vinci
JEAN PAUL RICHTER, 2nd Ed. P1i6

Stepping Back to Move Forward: Expressive Writing Promotes Self-Distancing |. Pedagogical Implications for Training those “Moody Artists”

Summary: Park, J., Ayduk, Ö, & Kross, E. (2016). Stepping back to move forward: Expressive writing promotes self-distancing. Emotion, 16(3), 349-364. For individuals high in emotional reactivity with less efficient stress management mechanisms, it seems possible to regulate negative affect and reactivity to specific stressful...
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[Pro-c Artist KWIC] knitting my | ASS | hairs together might be preferable Cantankerously HEXed: The trait of Agreeableness + Honest-Humility amongst visual artists [Big-C + Pro-c]

ROUGH + NEEDS CITATIONS ADDED. [or in playground talk: whose my daddy (theoretical basis foreFATHER) + my daddy can your daddy’s ass] INTRODUCTION low agreeableness of artists? Psychometric and historiometric studies on personality suggest a link exists between low Agreeableness and significant creative achievement, when creativity is considered...
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Knitting my | ass | hairs together might be preferable *
Psycholinguistic computational analysis: Writing about the artist as an amalgamation of numbers

There is a trend that visual artists—benders of conventions archived in contemporary art historical and critical texts—have robust expressive and critical writing practices. Why are these makers of things, twisters of conventions, also compelled to write? What is the act of writing doing for the...
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Social SENSE–what if

Need to explore. If mirror neurons in humans establish a capacity for empathy, a largely social function, and social pain piggybacks neural routes for registering magnitude and duration of perceptual (physical) pain, lighting up similar perceptual/pain/response regions of the brain, then is that this is our sense...
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don’t overly nerd up art in the analytical as the artist inhales a deep sense of lacking and exhales a countering lest the artist may suffocate under the weight of welded words. well, probably not as words then just become another expanse of lacking

“All art is critical. But it does not merely sit back and offer up critical commentary, like some know-it-all talk radio pundit. It actually does something about the shitty state — whatever that is, and I don’t mean only Texas — in which it finds itself....
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Somatic Compliance and the Dream Fragment :: Deriving a Derivative from the Dora Case Study

Video installation-Jared Stanley; choreography + performance direction-Ashley Meyers; sound poetry-Evangeline Jimenez; installation-Kathy Kelley. Photos-Jared Stanley, 2016. Often outside research and collaboration provides the artist with relief from the self-cannibalization of the autobiographical processes of artmaking, or at least in the case of my practice. And...
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Why are you conducting this interview?
So that I can find out what is been declassified.

Why is that necessary?
It is a way to keep alert, a kind of sanitation.

Why are you conducting this interview?
So that I can protect myself.

From what?
From people’s imagination.

How can you protect yourself with words?
Words ward off oblivion.

Why are you conducting this interview?
It is a way of realizing guilt.

Why are you conducting this interview?
I want to crystalize the daily situation of talking to myself.

Lucas Samaras (AutoInterview 1971)

Censor the body and you censor breath and speech at the same time. Write your self. Your body must be heard. — Hélène Cixous

Art is not about art. Art is about life…Art will continue, because…it is about the hurt of not being able to express yourself properly, to express your intimate relations, your unconscious, to trust the world enough to express yourself directly in it. It is about trying to be sane in this situation, of being tentatively and temporally sane by expressing yourself. All art comes from terrific failures and terrific needs that we have. It is about the difficulty of being a self because one is neglected. Art is a way of recognizing oneself…Without fear nothing in the world would ever be done. – Louise Bourgeios (p 167, 173…)

One of my favorite collectors collected white stones, each the size of a pebble and each representing a beautiful moment. These stones had a mysterious value to him and to no one else. Some people collect good luck charms like a penny on the street. Eery time they find one they get titallated.

Is the social worker collecting a collection of saved lives? What about the need to collect friends? What about diaries? My diaries are a form of collecting and they have no use to anybody but me. 

The only saving grace of collecting is its transitional value…hopefully there is a transition from the world of the object to the world of ideas.

–Louise Bourgeios, Artforum, 1994, vol 32.

Theories and schools, like microbes and globules, devour each other and by their struggle to ensure the continuing of life. – Marcel Proust

productively procrastinating Pierre Bourdieu

Anti-Responsive unreading of Pierre Bourdieu via weed pulling, dirt hauling, mattress harvesting and form making! Habitus = “durable, transposable dispositions, structured structures predisposed to function as structuring structures, that is as principles which generate and organize practices and representations that can be objectively adapted to their...
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“Just do your work. And if the world needs your work it will come and get you. And if it doesn’t, do your work anyway. You can have fantasies about having control over the world, but I know I can barely control my kitchen sink. That is the grace I’m given. Because when one can control things, one is limited to one’s own vision.” — Kiki Smith

 

https://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/200807/final-analysis-kiki-smith-creative-struggle

Joan Didion — “Had I been blessed with even limited access to my own mind there would have been no reason to write.”

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