artist + writer + perpetual home renovator

mumbling to myself aloud, in public, at times it is embarrassing.
tubes tubes

Art is not about art. Art is about life…Art will continue, because…it is about the hurt of not being able to express yourself properly, to express your intimate relations, your unconscious, to trust the world enough to express yourself directly in it. It is about trying to be sane in this situation, of being tentatively and temporally sane by expressing yourself. All art comes from terrific failures and terrific needs that we have. It is about the difficulty of being a self because one is neglected. Art is a way of recognizing oneself…

I had to create ways of making myself likable. It was the only way of escaping the depression which came from feeling superfluous—from feeling abandoned. (It is) the are of fighting depression (emotional dependence)…

Problems are symbols of a privileged territory a lot of people do not have access to…The artist sacrifices life to art not because he wants to but because he can not do anything else…

use anger and it is a raw emotion. It is my way of defending myself…

Without fear nothing in the world would ever be done. – Louise Bourgeious (p 167, 173…)

One of my favorite collectors collected white stones, each the size of a pebble and each representing a beautiful moment. These stones had a mysterious value to him and to no one else. Some people collect good luck charms like a penny on the street. Eery time they find one they get titallated.

Is the social worker collecting a collection of saved lives? What about the need to collect friends? What about diaries? My diaries are a form of collecting and they have no use to anybody but me. 

The only saving grace of collecting is its transitional value…hopefully there is a transition from the world of the object to the world of ideas.

–Louise Bourgeious, Artforum, 1994, vol 32.

Theories and schools, like microbes and globules, devour each other and by their struggle to ensure the continuing of life. – Marcel Proust

productively procrastinating Pierre Bourdieu

Anti-Responsive unreading of Pierre Bourdieu via weed pulling, dirt hauling, mattress harvesting and form making! Habitus = “durable, transposable dispositions, structured structures predisposed to function as structuring structures, that is as principles which generate and organize practices and representations that can be objectively adapted to their...
Read More0

“Just do your work. And if the world needs your work it will come and get you. And if it doesn’t, do your work anyway. You can have fantasies about having control over the world, but I know I can barely control my kitchen sink. That is the grace I’m given. Because when one can control things, one is limited to one’s own vision.” — Kiki Smith

 

https://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/200807/final-analysis-kiki-smith-creative-struggle

Joan Didion — “Had I been blessed with even limited access to my own mind there would have been no reason to write.”

I am cog

Autoethnographical Micro Reading Response 04—Adorno, Culture Industry CONCEPT: Adorno claims, “conformity has replaced consciousness” and “what might emerge as a point of resistance to the all-embracing unity of the system is immediately integrated and repressed” (Adorno and Bernstein, 1991, p 9) Perhaps Seven-of-Nine on Star Trek...
Read More0

Resistance must always be articulated from within discourse. – Judith Butler

1 2 3 106